Two.

Okay, so maybe this idea didn't work. Maybe I didn't get to post a blog everyday. I think I just forgot about this tbh. Either that, or didn't feel the need to spill my guts for the whole world to see. The first option is much more likely.

So...what's going on in my world right now? Well. I can't stand my boyfriend. I seem to push my friends away by trying to help them. I can't do anything right. Basically. Eugh, I'm such a screwup. I seriously hate myself these days. I want to smash everything that I can see my reflection in, because it makes me feel like I'll be destroying myself. The world would be such a better place without me.

I managed to fall out with the most important person in my life today. Y'know, Ches? I tried to give her options on what she could do after we finished school, because she's not going to college and stuff. There was both me and Annabel doing it. I guess we took it too far, and Ches got really angry with us. I don't really blame her. She's better with Annabel now, but still pissy with me. I can see why - I'm supposed to be her best friend, and though I said the least, I'm supposed to know her the best.

Jesus Christ. I wish I could tear my fucking face off right now. But before I do that, I think I'll tear my boyfriend limb from limb. Other than myself, he is definately the biggest arse in my life right now. He's lazy, he's selfish, he only seems to want me around for sexual things...I hate being with him. I feel like I have to constantly be doing something with him, or he gets bored. It makes me feel so cheap. I feel like I'm his fucking sex toy or something. I promised myself that I would never get into a relationship with anyone like that, but ah well. Me all over, ain't it, really?

I guess I should go. I think I'm about to cry or something. I may write soon - then again, I might now. All depends on how I'm feeling later and whether or not I actually remember that this exists.

Laters.